It all started with a sms: "It's important that we talk" What was to follow was an e-mail that left me floored.
Dear
“To burn with desire and keep quiet about it is the greatest punishment we can bring on ourselves.”- Federico García Lorca
You are probably wondering why you haven't heard from me in a while and I am sorry to have not lavished you with the attention you deserve. Distance and space often gives one clarity and most importantly in my case courage to gird my loins for what I know will be a battle of the heart.
I have known that this day would come for years now and I am somewhat glad it has come.
Being friends with you, has been a bitter sweet experience that has left my heart pacing and beating so slowly it could stop. Having to watch as your yearn for a love that makes each day worth living, each fight worth getting bruised for; I want to be that love for you! Why don't you love me? I am not of the opinion that you are oblivious of my current disposition! It's you that will complete my life.
You might wonder why I have kept these feelings to myself and why I never made my intentions clear. Well, you are the reason: you have made it clear that you will never date a friend and that if I ever developed feeling for you the friendship will be over. You are still single! What are you waiting for?
You have no reason but the fact that we friends not to give me a chance.
Does seeing me jump through hoops to get your attention stroke your ego? You must get some sordid pleasure out of seeing me beg for your affection. I don't want to be your friend, keep your friendship, keep it. I don't want it. I want us to be more than that.
Despite any frustration I might feel, the anger directed at you I still have hope that one day you will love me back. That one day I'll look at this e-mail as reminder of the day my life changed.
Sthandwa sami.
Always and Forever Yours
P.S I'll drop everything for you
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